New Year's Resolution

[Athene]

I would like to take a moment to wish ALL of you the BEST in the New Year to come.

I've made a New Year's resolution which I intend to keep. I'm putting things in the past behind me and not to judge others too harshly and be more forgiving.

I met someone online through myspace and we later shared phone numbers. I thought that person wasn't being honest with me and treated that person very, very badly and without just cause. I am not proud of how I acted at that time and have acknowledged that. I have recently sent that person two e-cards and I hope that it reaches that person and that person forgives me.

About a few months ago I met a man through a friend of mine and we exchanged numbers, bad mistake. He began calling me all hours of the day and night and I had to change my home number, twice! I have since chosen to forgive him and move on. I was also attacked by a man while defending my late fiancee, he had cancer and couldn't defend himself physically. I have also chosen to forgive that person. Otherwise, I couldn't live with myself harboring feelings of anger.

I have spoken to my Church pastor about these events in my life and said "am I a bad person for acting like that and saying hateful and doing hateful things to those who I feel have wronged me?" My pastor said "No, you were lost then and have found God and Jesus and have a truly compassionate heart and have chosen to forgive and you too shall be forgiven". I now sing in my Church choir and am truly blessed by my friends and family and my pets.

Recently, my Doctor changed my medication. I'm bi-polar and have been prone to periods of irrational behavior/mood swings in the past. The new medication is working for me much better. I feel much calmer these days and even my brother, family and friends have noticed a major difference. I'm not the same person I was a few years ago. I'm much happier now and intend to keep my New Year's resolution of being kinder to others.

I would also like to say God Bless ALL of you here. I think of each and everyone of you as a friend. It is an honor and pleasure to be amongst you.

Athene

[Nacky]

That's great news because singing, no matter what it is, is a very positive way to express yourself and gospel singing can be very therapudic! I like Christmas songs, even any time of the year. There's just something about those songs.

My resolutions are basically to not let negative things get to me. As you know, and many others know, I have a stalker who has vowed to "plague" me but none of that has even worked to the extent it had hoped. (I know Athene is also stalked by this same person) But I still have my life, and I have fun living my life and I forget that evil being even existing. So while I have been through some very dark periods of time and keeping my security up and my sites safe from hackers and wannabes, I still do my own thing and go about my life.

Sorry to hear that someone attacked your fiancé, Athene, and that's terrible considering that he has cancer and all. I'm sure he was very thankful to you for defending him.

Keep singing, Athene! I do! Me and Brad are also taking ballroom dance lessons. We've met so many new friends and it's a very positive experience. I've also taken up Kung Fu and it's very demanding physically. My trainer is a very special soul, very kind, wise and everything you'd hope for in an instructor. Not some pumped up ego trippin' guy. But the dancing helps me with footing and balance and the Martial Arts helps me remember dance steps! So it's like both are productive of the other. Sometimes I get sore muscles from the workouts but it sure pays off when you get something down pat.

Another resolution, if I can, is to finally design and make a model of a planetarium I have always dreamed of. With state of the art features, models of the planets and moons all revolving around a huge platform in real time as the real planets and moons in the solar system move. i.e. Wherever Saturn is at from our Earth, that's what the model will do, and you get the idea. But it's just an idea at this point. I've already written out an addendum and submitted it for patent to the local Astronomy club but with all the other things going on in my life I just haven't had any time to follow up.

So my resolution is to try to work on that. Hopefully I can. And to not let negative, insignificant things get to me.

[Damocles]

I have a simple resolution. To be a better Human being this year than I was last year. Based on last year's record that will not be hard to do.

[Siress Sarika]

Wow, I enjoyed reading all of your posts here, friends.
That was really lovely to hear your sacred personal things, and to know you all feel so comfortable in sharing them with us.
It takes a lot to do that, I know.

I think we all feel when we look back in hindsight, that we could have done better or been a better person, and yes, we often find that is true, because we have since grown or evolved more as a person in the time that has passed.
We see our flaws and our imperfections or bad experiences or bad choices/decisions clearer.

But also know that we are all just doing the best we can as human beings.
But also remember we are all spirit within, eternally.
That is the part of us that is perfect, no matter what, and it is what tries to guide us all.
As long as we learn from our experiences and encounters, we are evolving to be what we need to be.
I wish you all your hopes and fondest wishes come true, no matter what they are.